I’m back! And hopefully this time for a longer period of time😉
I had a very long silence period because I wasn’t sure which way I wanted to take this blog and what to write about since I felt I didn’t have enough experience to keep on writing the way I did. But recently major changes occurred and with them a possibility to use this blog again.
So, as you know, I am studying to be an opera singer and am almost at the end of my studies at the Academy of Music in Zagreb. Since I feel I have a lot more work to do on my technique and need to gain more experience on stage I have applied for a masters program at the University of Bern. This program is called “Swiss Opera Studio” and is dislocated from the University – it takes place in a small town called Biel, 40 km from Bern. Anyway, long story short-I went to audition in April and got in. All of it was really exciting and I was over the moon. But in April, September seemed so far away and it looked as if I have a whole eternity before I actually have to leave everything and everyone and move alone to a place I have seen twice in my life and where I know very few people, most of which are my future teachers, whom I can’t really call over for a PJ party (right??) I know this sounds like a really bad thing and as if I am really sad and depressed and “drama drama drama”. Of course it’s not like that and I am really looking forward to it and to all the new things I will experience and learn and people I will meet and hopefully befriend. And I have always wanted to have the “student life away of home” experience. But somehow you always think it’s in the future. It will happen, but not now. There’s time. And then suddenly there’s no time. And you have 15 days left. To pack, say goodbye, finish all the document work there’s left. It’s really exciting. And really scary. Especially if you are like me. I was lucky to be able to study in the place where I was born so I never really left my comfort zone. Ok, I don’t live with my parents anymore but again my apartment is so close I can go to their fridge instead of visiting the supermarket. I have done some steps. But like really tiny. Almost as if only my pinky is peeking out of a warm, cosy bubble bath . I have always been able to just jump in a car or take a tram and in 30 minutes I would be with my aunt/grandma/best friend/boyfriend…And now everything will be a 15 hours bus ride away. I have no idea how do you even prepare for such a thing. I know I am not the first not the least to do this. And far younger people have done it very successfully without dramas. But you know, to every person their problem is the biggest and the hardest one.
And so I thought maybe I could come back to this blog. Write about my experiences and ways to live and study opera abroad, about leaving the comfort zone and exploring new things and exploring yourself. I don’t want to say: ‘find yourself’. I don’t think I’m lost. I know who I am, but it is definitely time to broaden my views, gain new experience and build myself up. Upgrade. Change.
Right now this is more for me then for you. They say it’s good to share and have a way of expressing all of your emotions, fears etc. And maybe a way to keep in touch with many of my friends without having to repeat something dozens of time (lazy Buga in action😉 ). So that’s what I’m going to do. Maybe it will be helpful for some of you, hopefully interesting…I don’t think there will be a fixed schedule, so when something interesting happens I could share, I’ll post it.
Have a nice day, I’m of to apartment hunting, which I’m planning to write about soon so if you’re planning on moving to Switzerland-in the next 2, 3 weeks I’ll be writing mostly about the process and preparation, so maybe it will be interesting for you to come back soon :)